We didn’t turn it on but we can’t turn it off, off, off
Sometimes I wonder how did we get here
Seems like all we ever hear is Noise
-Kenny Chesney
The excitement is building. There’s something special about the weekend before a backpacking trip. My mind starts to spin with possibilities: What gear should I bring? What’s the meal plan? Should I refresh my playlist? Download a movie or TV show for the tent? Will I get a hotel the night before, stealth camp in the back of my Bronco, or just wake up early and hit the road straight to the trailhead?
I can feel the dopamine already—this is what excitement looks like for me. So many decisions, yet not a single wrong answer. Whatever I choose, it’s all part of the adventure.
“Few places in this world are more dangerous than home. Fear not, therefore, to try the mountain passes. They will kill care, save you from deadly apathy, and set you free.”
—John Muir
Lately, life has felt heavy. There are things happening around me that are beyond my control. Someone I know said something the other day that really stuck with me—she told me I lack sympathy. And while that was hard to hear, I’ve been thinking about it a lot. The truth is, I do sympathize. But 28 years in law enforcement has also hardened me. I’m not afraid to admit that. I’ve seen a lot and heard a lot of stories, which inevitably has encroached into my own life and lacking sympathy is probably a coping mechanism I developed to help me endure what I saw throughout my career. But I also believe that, in many cases, there are answers—we just have to choose to act on them. I struggle to feel sympathy when people knowingly neglect basic needs or well-being, especially when they have the tools and ability to take care of themselves. That said, I know this is an area I need to keep exploring. Stepping away, unplugging, and immersing myself in the stillness of the Yosemite backcountry isn’t just a getaway—it’s therapy. Going to the mountains is not only a return home; it’s how I stay grounded and protect my peace of mind.
Enough of the heavy stuff… As always, I’m aiming to keep my load light. I’ve been experimenting with ways to shave ounces from my pack, and for this trip, I’m testing a new water filtration system. I’m leaving my four-liter gravity filter at home and replacing it with a Sawyer Squeeze coupler I snagged for four bucks from Garage Grown Gear. It’ll let me filter directly into a 28mm bottle—light, simple, and efficient.

A few weeks ago, I did a shakedown hike to Stanford Point in Yosemite. It was flawless. My gear is tuned, and I’m ready to step up from an overnight to a two-night, three-day solo trek—back in the heart of Yosemite. I will build on each trip, adding nights as I go.
This route will blend the familiar with the unknown. I checked the CalTopo satellite imagery, and aside from a little snow on Horse Ridge, the trail should be clear.

My route on CalTopo

Sattelite image of the same area two days ago.
